Patrick Christian Barbosa

HAVE A BLESSED, GLORIOUS, PEACEFUL DAY IN HEAVEN.
REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE AND WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY
HEART, SOUL, LIFE FOREVER... UNTIL WE MEET IN HEAVEN.
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH... I MISS YOU SO DEEPLY, PATRICK

                                          



PATRICK, I CAN'T CONTROL MY TEARS, MY SADNESS, MY PAIN, FOR THEY ARE
MY COMPANION IN THIS TORTUROUS JOURNEY CALLED " GRIEF." I ALSO CAN'T LET
GO OF MY SON. I AM VERY SORRY... I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO HOLD BACK MY TEARS.
CARRYING MY CROSS IS THE PRICE OF MY LOVE FOR YOU. BE AT PEACE, HAPPY, AND
CLOSE TO ME.



I MISS YOU... I MISS YOU...I MISS YOU...




PRECIOUS SON, HAVE A BLESSED DAY In HEAVEN.



I  LOVE YOU... I MISS YOU... I NEED YOU... COME INTO MY DREAMS MORE OFTEN.
MY DREAMS ARE THE ONLY PLACE I CAN SEE YOU AND REKINDLE OUR LIFE TOGETHER...
UNTIL I JOIN YOU IN HEAVEN. WE ARE BONDED TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY. BE HAPPY ANGEL!





MAY YOUR JOURNEY IN HEAVEN BE ALWAYS HAPPY, GLORIOUS ETERNALLY.





IT IS EASIER TO SAY THAN TO ACCEPT MY LOSS. PLEASE GIVE ME A SIGN THAT YOU ARE
VERY HAPPY, AND AT PEACE.


                               
                                
                                  MAY GOD ALWAYS PROTECT AND COMFORT YOU. I LOVE YOU.

                                    

                                       MAY YOUR DAY BLOOM AS THIS BEAUTIFUL ROSE.


                                        

 MAY THESE CANDLES NEVER STOP BURNING AROUND YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL IN HEAVEN.

I wish you did not become an Angel in Heaven so soon, for you were
already an Angel on earth. Watch over your brothers and keep them away
from any harm. But enjoy your heavenly angel duty in God home.
I miss you dearly. Be at peace and happy among all angels mates.




From the sky, my angel Patrick embrace us ETERNALLY



JESUS EMBRACE MY SON UNDER YOUR HOLY WINGS ETERNALLY.



Hi Patrick,

How are you? How is the spiritual life treating my son? I pray you are gracefully, gloriously happy
and at peace. Your physical life will always be alive and vibrant in this life I am living, although, this life is very empty, lonely, and painful without you, but I will take one moment at the time toward hope and faith; for my son... my angel will be around to help me with my journey of grief. One holiday has just left and another one is around the corner still without my son. WHY?

 Frederick is going to New York by next week to start his dream. Please be close by Frederick and help him follow his desires and dreams gracefully, happily, safely. Kevin will return to college after the Christmas break... he will also need your angelic lead to a graceful path. Steve is enjoying his job, and also thinking about his other dreams. Please be his guardian Angel and help him also lead a graceful dream, desire, future. May your brotherly love, bond gets stronger and more powerful FOREVER. Alyana, Braelynn, Tina and her unborn baby; Desiree, Dion, Armani, Elsa, your father... they all need your protection. I NEED MY BELOVED SON EVERY SECOND OF LIFE... EVERY BREATH I TAKE, AND IN EVERY DREAM MY MIND DRAWS INTO. LOVE, MOM.

 PATRICK, WE ALL MISS YOU DEEPLY, NEED YOUR PRESENCE DEARLY, AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
 BE AROUND YOUR FAMILY ETERNALLY UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, FOR LOVE NEVER
CEASES BUT GROWS STRONGER AND STRONGER.

PLEASE, SON, STAY GLORIOUSLY AND PEACEFULLY HAPPY IN HEAVEN FOREVER!

               YOU ARE ALWAYS IN OUR PRAYERS, HEARTS, THOUGHTS, AND LIVES FOREVER!


                                     
 

   PRAYING THAT YOUR HEAVENLY LIGHTS ARE ALWAYS BRIGHT.
   MAY GOD'S ANGELS ARE AROUND YOU TO KEEP YOU HAPPY AND
   AT PEACE.

HAPPY, BLESSED NEW YEAR, SON. MAY YOU ALWAYS BE IN
OUR HEARTS, MINDS, AND SOULS FOREVER! MAY GOD KEEP
YOU SAFE, HAPPY, AND GLORIOUS IN THIS NEW YEAR AND FOREVER.



NEW YEAR IS HERE EMBRACING MY LONELY LIFE WITHOUT YOU.
HAVE A HAPPY, PEACEFUL, AND GLORIOUS NEW YEAR.




 IN THIS NEW YEAR HEADING INTO MY EMPTY LIFE, I WISH MY LOVING
SON A VERY GLORIOUS MOMENT ETERNALLY. I MISS YOU.



I  MISS YOU SO DEEPLY, SON. HAPPY NEW YEAR AND THE YEARS TO COME
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN AND REGAIN MY SON FROM GOD.



MAY YOUR GLORIOUS LIGHT SHINE ETERNALLY.
I MISS YOU.


  
   RECEIVE MY FONDEST WISHES AND PRAYERS IN HEAVEN.
   HAPPY, BLESSED NEW YEAR! I LOVE AND MISS YOU DEARLY.



HAPPY, BLESSED NEW YEAR ALL OF YOU IN HEAVEN.
JESUS PROTECT AND COMFORT MY SON FOREVER.

Hi, Patrick

The new year is here. Where are you my son? I hope and pray that everyone in Heaven is taking care of my son very well. I hope you are not alone or afraid of making friends at your new home. But remember you have a home on earth also. You will always be a part of your family. For I heard that death is not a termination but a continuation of life... in another part of the Universe. Patrick, help us feel your presence. Watch over your brothers, for they need you more than ever. Help me walk through the last day of my horrible year... the year they took my son away and left me behind to grieve alone. Be always around your mother until we meet again. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, PATRICK.
            

 WISHING MY LOVING SON A BLESSED, GLORIOUS NEW YEAR IN HEAVEN!
 ANOTHER HOLIDAY ON THE WAY TO FOLLOW MY MISERABLE JOURNEY.
 MAY THE HOLY SPIRIT ALWAYS PROTECT AND COMFORT MY SON ETERNALLY!



I PRAY YOUR NEW YEAR WILL BE AS BRIGHT AS THIS TREE.
HAPPY, GLORIOUS, PEACEFUL NEW YEAR, SON! I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU IMMENSELY. BE AT PEACE AND BE SAFE AND HAPPY
IN THE INFINITE LIGHT.


Hi, Patrick


How are you? The end of the year is coming... the worst year I ever experienced in my life. The year I lost my most precious son, whom had left me so lonesome for longing your presence. I never thought I would see this miserable year touching my life so tragically. This year will ever be marked, stigmatized in my heart, soul, and life forever until we meet. I am so ready whenever God calls me to join that Hereafter I have been reading about since you left me empty, confused, and eager to learn anything and everything about this Infinite Light. As you know I have  been all the books about grieving and the Afterlife I can buy.These books are not comforting my great pain, but I can hope a little. With the grace of God, I pray I will get a little light through these cracks of hopes each time I finish a book. I know grieving is not a destination but a journey of hope and faith. Perhaps it will help  a little each time you visit me in my dreams, so please, Son, come into my dreams more often, for I need my son dearly because my dreams of my angel are all I got now as your presence. I hope yesterday you were celebrating your memorial Mass with your family. They say death is not a termination but a continuation of life. In that case, one should not be afraid of death or be a stranger to a bereaved parent... a bereaved mother. And I will surely find out all about it when I join you as soon as my work is done in here.

Take care of yourself, Son. Please keep watching over your brothers, Tina and her unborn baby, Alyana, and Braelynn, and the rest of the family. You are our Angel now. Jevany needs your protection... stay close by him... and of course always be by your mother's side. A bond between a mother and her child can never break. I LOVE YOU... I MISS YOU DEARLY. HAPPY NEW YEAR, MY SON. 

                                          

     MISSING MY BELOVED SON SO DEEPLY!



                                              


  PRAYING YOU HAD A GREAT, PEACEFUL, GLORIOUS CHRISTMAS!

                                         

                  MAY YOUR LIGHT SHINE GLORIOUSLY AND ETERNALLY!



                                      

     I MISS YOU SO DEARLY. COME INTO MY DREAMS.

                                          

                                   MAY YOUR LIGHT SHINE GLORIOUSLY AND ETERNALLY IN HEAVEN!!!
                                   I LOVE YOU... I MISS YOU DEEPLY.


Hi, Son

This evening was the Annual Candlelight Day for all your beautiful Souls. I pray you were among us at the ceremony.  It was a sad group with all your family: Your brothers Steve, Frederick, and Kevin, Tina, Alayana, your grand-mother, your cousins: Joanna, Angelique, Monique, Alex, Stephane, Casi, Jevany, and your girfriend Monica.  It was very touching, sad moment for all of us. I still can't believe you are not here with me... us... physically, but I know you are and will always be around your family spiritually. Come into my dreams and ease the pain and let me know you are happy, safe, and at peace.

                     HAVE A VERY HAPPY, BLESSED CANDLELIGHT DAY IN HEAVEN!!

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU IMMENSELY. 





    LIFE OR CHRISTMAS, OR ANY HOLIDAY WILL NEVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU

                                          

                                               ONCE, YOU WERE AN ANGEL; TWICE, YOU ARE A
                                                GLORIOUS ANGEL. MAY GOD PRAY FOR YOU FOR
                                                 A HAPPY, PEACEFUL, GLORIOUS SPIRITUAL LIFE
                                                  ETERNALLY.

That in mind, I wish you a happy, peaceful, glorious night... day eternally. Today, it's your father
 birthday, but I am sure you already knew that. Saturday, it's Alyana birthday. So many birthdays, so many holidays, but I am too numb to feel anything. I will never understand why you left me behind. It's so wrong... unfair for the both of us... your family.

I LOVE YOU, MISS YOU IMMENSELY... See you in my DREAMS.

                                          

      LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU. I MISS YOU SO DEEPLY.
      WE ARE FOREVER BONDED INTO ONE HEART, ONE SOUL.
      MAY YOUR LIGHT SHINES GLORIOUSLY, ETERNALLY AND SOOTHE
      YOUR PEACEFUL, HAPPY PLACE IN HEAVEN WITH GOD, JESUS, BLESSED MOTHER.


 

  MY HOPES AND DREAMS FOR MY SON WERE BROKEN AND VANISHED IN ONE SECOND.
  IT'S SO UNFAIR.

Hello, my son


How are you? Praying that my quiet, friendly son, is very happy, and safely, peacefully comforted by the other Angels in Heaven. Today, it's Desiree birthday, and I kind forgot, thinking it's tomorrow. Lately I have been forgetting every one birthday. I am just so angry, bitter, alone with myself, the whole world. I am so angry that my hopes and dreams for my sons are shattered, gone in one unforgettable fated morning. It's unfair... you deserve  to have a dream, and I deserve to  wish my son the very best in life... not a broken heart, a shattered soul and lonely life.

 Every one is going on with their own life while I feel so alone, lost, empty and you are far away. Why is that? I don't understand why you left so sudden and so young. I don't want to think about anything else but my horrible loss, guilt, anger. I would rather be in my room reading these grieving to feed my helpless mind, my broken heart, when I take a breath from being in front of your website. I don't get my shattered world... I don't understand it. Please help me grasp reality that my loss is real, my grief will not go away because you are not coming back to me, physically. But please, Son, I need you around spiritually to help me walk through this difficult journey I was chosen for... to help me see the light of hope, faith... until I see you in Heaven.

Since I started reading these grieving books... after-life books, I understand I am not the only one carrying my cross. There are so many horrible, sad stories out there, but a loss of a child is a loss, a grave tragedy, unthinkable agony  for any one to endure no matter the circumstances it was involved.  I feel for those bereaved parents' pain, sorrows. Life is full of tragedy, sadness, unfairness. Tell God as always, to forgive me for my bad thoughts, anger, resentment, and jealousy that I feel. I can't help myself with these feelings... I feel cheated out of my son's life, my hopes and dreams I had for you. I know I can't change fate, destiny but I can still hope, dream, or wish the best for my children as  with any parent. Our children should be our future not our past. I am sorry God, Jesus, Blessed Mother. Please give me a sign that my son is safe, happy and in peace. Amen... thank you. I love you all. I send a big hug to my son, Patrick and  I pray that my hug will last eternally around his angelic body until you call for me. I hope I was a good mother to you, Patrick.

All right, Patrick, I am going back to reading. I wish you a peaceful, happy and night in Heaven. See you in my dreams... see you later. I love you and miss you so much it aches through my shattered soul. I hope you like  the heart flower I put at your grave site. You are FOREVER in my heart. Goodnight, Patrick.

                                           

                UNTIL THEN SON, EMBRACE ME WITH YOUR GENTLE WINGS
                TO EASE MY PAIN, MY SORROW, MY LOSS.
                AND WAIT FOR YOUR MOTHER AT GATE HAPPILY WHEN THE ANGELS
                COME WITH THEIR  GENTLE WHISPER FOR ME.
                LOVE NEVER DIES... IT CONTINUES FOREVER.
                THAT'S A GREAT, INCREDIBLE GIFT FROM GOD: TRUE LOVE.


Hello, my Angel

How are you? I hope you are safe, in peace and happy in a comfort of God, Jesus, Blessed Mother,
all the Angels, all the Saints and families and friends in Heaven. I got this passage in today reading. I subscribed Bible reading online. When I can't get a chance to read my Bible in bed, at least  I read online every day. Anyway today reading got my eyes and hopes that i will see my son again as he never left me. This hope is all I got now to endure my pain, my great loss. They said that one day death will be no more. I pray it  comes TRUE, but in any case, I will see my loving son either way: IN HEAVEN OR  IN THE OTHER NEW LIFE.

BE AT THE GATE WHEN GOD CALLS ME. Enjoy the reading.