Patrick Christian Barbosa

 

                    

 

 

   CONGRATULATION UNCLE PATRICK!

    YOUR NEW NEPHEW MASON PATRICK

     IS HOME.

Good evening Patrick,

I just came from your brother Steve's house. I finally met my first grandson three days after he was born because I could not  go to Kent hospital... the same hospital that took away my loving son. I can never forget what they did to my son... to me. They had neglected you instead of helping you for no reason. Why these doctors did what they did to you, I will never understand it or forget it. They took your life and destroyed mine. I am so sorry they let you down. I am so sorry I trusted these incompetent doctors with your life. Because of their negligence, I lost my son. I also had to wait until my grandson went home to visit him. It's so unfair!

 Baby Mason Patrick looks like his father, but it's still too soon to tell, seeing that babies changes a lot. I wish you were here with us to enjoy our new life, baby. Life sucks Patrick! Why you are not here with me I will never understand or accept it. I really need my son beside me through this lonely journey. Help me get stronger so I can feel my son's presence. Help me get my wish that I need so desperatly. I will try very to get back my faith, to be positive so we can connect from Heaven to here. I pray these stories I have been reading about the connection between a mother and her child, Angel in Heaven will one day happen to me... to us. I believe I deserve that chance.. that gift from God. Amen.

Steve is very happy with his new baby son. Please watch over your nephew, take care of him. Alyana is so exicted with her baby brother. She said the baby is her son. Braelynn is coming tomorrow to meet her new brother. Patrick, you are now our guardian Angel. Please watch over us. We all need you so much in our lives. Help me find justice for you, for me, for us, so I can find a small peace of mind for my horrible loss needlessly. Help me keep your sweet memories alive in this world. When my work is done here I will be ready to meet my loving son whom I miss so deeply. I love you. I miss you. I need you.

  Wishing my loving son Patrick a blessed, peaceful, happy, and glorious journey in Heaven with God, Jesus, Blessed Mother, and all the Angels and Saints. Amen.

                             FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS!                          

                      

 

 

      I LOVE YOU PATRICK. I MISS YOU!

Good evening Patrick!

How are you doing in Heaven? I pray you are very happy,

at peace. I hope you have met all our loved ones in Heaven.

We have lost another family from my father's side... a 21 year old boy. He had his whole life ahead of him just like you and now cut so short. Why Patrick? Could you give me that answer in my dreams because I don't really understand why our children can't experience this life on earth before going home to God. What's the purpose in going to God so soon when it breaks our hearts?

 When God call our children home so soon why can't we have our Angels more often in our dreams? I deserve  that wish to be granted. Please Patrick help walk this sad journey. I need my son so much. Mother's Day is this Sunday. It should be a happy day for all the mothers, but I  am so full of anger, sadness, pain, tears... Help me get through this day and each passing day. I will hope to get a sign on Mother's Day for comfort from my loving son... Angel Patrick Christian with all my heart. I will be at work Sunday. Wishing you always a blessed, happy, peaceful, and glorious journey with God, Jesus, Blessed Mother, and all the Angels and Saints. See you around my Angel. Thinking of you as always with love, prayers.

                              FOREVER IN MY HEART!

                   

 

 

 

Hi Patrick

 

How are you doing in Heaven? Yesterday I went to another family's funeral... my father's cousin. I hope you have already met him in Heaven. Today marks nine months I have lost you to God leaving me behind with a broken heart, a shattered soul, a lonely journey, but it  today is also a day closer to join my loving son in Heaven with God. Life is so unfair on earth. Mother's Day is next month... a very special day for all mothers. But what about for mothers who have broken hearts? How should we feel about Mother's Day? For myself Mother's Day will never be the same... my life has changed. I can't get back what I had nine months before my fated day... my four sons. I miss you Patrick so much.  I can now only pray, wish, and hope you will always be near me until we meet.

Please watch over your brothers. Alyana misses you a lot. Braelynn is getting big every time I see her. I hope you have been with me all along my days sitting by the computer talking, writing to you and crying from missing you.

 

    YOU ARE SO LOVED AND MISSED DEEPLY

WISHING MY ANGEL PATRICK CHRISTIAN

                           HAPPY EASTER!

                                                     

 LIFE BEGINS WITH THE RESURRECTION

  OF JESUS... PATRICK IS STILL ALIVE!

           

Good evening Patrick!

How are you doing in Heaven? I hope my son is very happy with God. I miss you so much. I don't understand why you are not here with me. I can go over and over in my mind why my son left me and I still come empty without any logic answer. I understand we all here in this Earth temporary, but I don't understand why a mother should bury her child. I don't get it Patrick. Sometimes it does hit me for a second that you are really not here with me where you belong, and I still come back empty. I have no answer to help me believe about my loss... my pain. I really do not get it at all Patrick.

Easter is on its way... the resurrection of Jesus. It should mean a beginning of life for all of us when we leave this world. It should be just a transition to another life with God not the end of life but just a release from our bodies. Is that the truth Patrick? If it is then I will certainly see my loving son Patrick again. I miss you so dearly it aches deep in my soul.

 After I lost you to God, the world still continue to go on in full speed, while I am standing still with a broken heart, a shattered soul, an unexplainable journey of sadness, tears. But knowing you are still alive, I will try to take one day at the time as it still aches deep in my heart for not seeing you, touching you or planning your dreams. Please stay close by, help me make your life, your sweet memories alive in this world. When I am done with my work, please come get me because I don't like this world... it's so unfair. Until then do visit me more often in my dreams and let know you are OK, happy, and at peace. Sending you an Easter basket full of my love, hugs, kissses. Have a glorious day in Heaven. I  love you. I miss you. I need you. My thoughts and prayers are always with you, Son. Take care of yourself. Love, Mom. 

                                         

                    

I miss you and I love you. You are my favorite uncle because you taught us a lesson to be kind.

                    

 

           

 

Hello Patrick!

 

How are you doing in Heaven? Praying that God, Jesus, Blessed Mother and all His Angels and Saints are watching over my loving son, protecting and comforting my Angel. Today is the first day of spring... a happy day for a lot of people, but for your lonely mother is still a gloomy day. Wishing it is a glorious, happy day for you in Heaven, for it is my only consolation out this horrible journey I am walking through. I hope and pray God will help me understand my journey.

 

I hope my loving son whom I miss more than life will always be close to me and help me walk along my journey. I am very sorry about your brother Frederick unkind behaviors. Please forgive Frederick as you know your brother is lost in his own little world I don't understand it. I hope and pray one day soon he will find his way to God and his family who love him despite his restless thoughts about us... me.  I promise his misbehaviors will not happen again. I will always treasure your beautiful memories... your sweet life. Please watch over your brothers and take care of them. I pray that my four sons will always have a powerful bond, relationship. We all need your beautiful heart upon us! WISHING YOU A HAPPY SPRING TIME IN HEAVEN!

MAY YOUR HEAVENLY JOURNEY ALWAYS BLOOM WITH PEACE, HAPPINESS, AND GLORY!

 

             I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU. I NEED YOU.

   WISHING YOU A VERY HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!

  PRAYING THAT ST. PATRICK IS COMFORTING YOU ALONG WITH THE OTHER ANGELS.

          

      I MISS YOU PATRICK SO MUCH.
      LIFE IS SO UNFAIR, SO MESSED UP!
      HAVE A LOVELY JOURNEY IN HEAVEN.

     MOTHER Of GOD COMFORT PATRICK
     

              Good evening, Patrick

How are you doing in Heaven? Another holiday is on the way... St. Patrick's Day... another moment without you. I am trying very hard to focus at work while my thoughts of the last 24 hours of your short life is constantly draining my heart and mind.  I have the same horrible question haunting me day and night... what had happened to my son? You supposed to be recovering very well as that incompetent doctor had promised me. I don't understand why you left me... I don't get it... I can't accept it. It's insane, Patrick! I am still hoping to wake up from this horrible nightmare and have my son back. Sometimes I want to pull my hair and scream until I drop on the floor and join you.

I go over and over in my mind why you left me so soon but come back empty. Nothing makes sense... it's unreal! How am I suppose to go on with my miserable life when I can't believe or accept you are gone to be with God. What about me? I need you too. I have to keep fighting my thoughts and focus in keeping your life and memories alive. Help me please! Help me feel your presence. Come into my dreams more often and let me know you are all right, happy and at peace in Heaven. I can't walk this horrible journey alone. I feel so alone, depressed...

Have a glorious, peaceful, and sweet night in Heaven. say hello to my grand mother, my father, and everyone else in the family you have met... hopefully you did and they taking care of my wonderful son whom I miss so much words can describe it.

        MEET ME AT THE GATE WHEN GOD CALL ME HOME.

   FOREVER IN MY HEART, SOUL, MIND.

            

    WISHING YOU A GLORIOUS JOURNEY!

 
         I WISH MY LOVING SON PATRICK
   A BLESSED, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!


                            
                            

                                    I MISS YOU PATRICK SO MUCH! 

            MY WORLD IS EMPTY, ALONE, TEARFUL, SO DEPRESSED.    

Hi Patrick,

Another holiday is coming... Valentine's Day. You should be here today celebrating life, love with your girlfriend Monica if the doctors did not let you down. I know we are all on this earth temporary until God call us home, but negligence to life happens just like murder, suicide, which makes one leaves this life sooner than God had planned for. These are the cruelest acts can ever happen to human... to life... to the victims... to their poor families who are left behind to grieve, to bear unbearable, unthinkable pain, agony.  Is it fair? No! How can ever accept my great loss these thoughts engraved in my heart, my mind, my soul. I am helpless Patrick. I need help!

                     GOD HELP ME CARRY MY CROSS!

           PATRICK STAY WITH ME!

                MAY YOUR LIGHT BURN FOREVER IN
                          HEAVEN!    

          FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS!     

            
                 

            FAITH, HOPE, AND LOVE ARE THE CORE OF MOTHERHOOD... THE GREATEST OF
            THEM ALL IS LOVE... YOU MY SON. I LOVE YOU PATRICK... I MISS YOU ANGEL.

                                               

     MAY YOUR HEAVENLY JOURNEY BLOSSOM INTO AN EVERLASTING FRAGRANCE OF FLOWERS, LOVE, PEACE, AND GLORY. I KNOW BLESSED MOTHER WILL FOREVER COMFORT
YOU, MY BEAUTIFUL SON, ANGEL BESIDE HER LOVING SON JESUS, FOR TODAY I FEEL DEEPLY HER PAIN, HER AGONY. BUT THE ONLY DIFFERENCE, SHE IS WITH HER SON, AND I AM LEFT BEHIND TO GRIEVE YOU... TO FEEL THE ULTIMATE PAIN OF ALL.

WITH FAITH MY TIME TO MEET MY SON AGAIN WILL COME WHEN GOD CALL ME HOME, FOR
HEAVEN IS OUR ETERNAL HOME... NO ONE SHOULD BE AFRAID TO JOIN OUR HEAVENLY FAMILY. BUT GOD, SHOULDN'T WE ALL DESERVE TO EXPERIENCE THIS LIFE ON EARTH FIRST? SORRY AGAIN GOD, FOR I CAN'T CONTROL MY THOUGHTS, MY HEART ABOUT MY GREATEST LOSS... I MISS MY SON... I DEEPLY MISS MY SON.  BLESSED MOTHER YOU ARE A MOTHER... YOU UNDERSTAND MY FRUSTRATION... MY ANGER OF LOSING PATRICK. KEEP MY SON SAFE PLEASE. I LOVE YOU ALL!



                                        
                    THESE CANDLES ARE LIT FOR YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL, SPIRIT FULL
                    OF LOVE, PEACE, HAPPINESS... HOPE, FAITH, AND LOTS OF LOVE FROM
                     YOUR MOTHER WHO LOVE YOU AND MISSES YOU IMMENSELY.

               HAVE A GLORIOUS DAY IN HEAVEN!

This is how I remembered Patrick......  when he was a little boy, being so quiet, timid and has great resemblance of his father. At parties, you see him sitting at the table behaving so well, when his other 3 brothers were running around and playing.  He sure was not an outspoken boy, but has a sweet and calm voice.  As the years go by, we lost contact until the day of his death.... what a sad moment, see him as a grown man.  I am glad that I am able to share this with you and to let you know that your family is not alone as we are here to give them support and caring to keep your spirit alive as always.... iluminate them so they can be strong and uplifting to continue to praise your kindness, sweetness and also make us understand why our beloved father does the things he does simply because he loves us and he knows that you would of been better with him than on earth as he always takes the best!  Keep us in your praisers so one day we can see each other in eternal life!

 

Amen....