Good evening, Patrick
How are you? I hope you are resting peacefully and happily with God who took you away from me... from your family in the middle of the fruits of your life. God must have a great reason to snatch you away from your mother who is yearning for your presence. Now God, has to show me a way to go on with my miserable and achy life without my loving son. Oh God, please, You need to overlook my anger, my complaints, and help me heal. I don't know what else to say or think. My broken heart is the lead of my selfish and angry thoughts or speech. I am sure, Blessed Mother knows what I am going through now... my agony, my loss. The worst nightmare of a mother, is loosing a child. I never thought I would see that day coming... life is short, and destiny is surely uncertain. Please Jesus, forgive me for my tantrums, my frustrations because I can't keep them inside my heart... remember, this poor heart is already too broken, to hold in my frustration or anger.
Patrick, lately, I have been busy reminiscing my precious moment with you and Michael Jackson. Today, again, I watched another DVD concert of Michael Jackson that I just received. After, I came back from visiting you, I watched the entire video. I am still hoping you are always by my side when I am watching Michael Jackson or when I am going through my fazes of tormented moments without you in my life... which are every moment I think of you, imagine that you are near me, or our life together. I just ordered some posters and picture of Michael Jackson to put in your bedroom. Please feel free to visit your bedroom anytime you want. No one has to ask who's room is it, because it is blooming with your sweet memories... the whole house actually is. Don't worry, my son, your mother will make sure your memories and life will always be alive in my heart, your family's hearts and beyond... See you tomorrow at your resting place, in my dream, or your dreamland. May your light brighten eternally around the Doves and Angel of God's heavenly kingdom... and hopefully one day, my light will brighten as well, and the darkness in my gloomy life will fade away but not you in my heart, my soul, my life. Patrick, you are dearly loved and remembered forever in my mind, heart, and soul. Keep watching over your dear brothers. Thanks, my love. Hug and kisses from here and above. You are my Dove, my sweet angel.