I HAVE A PLACE IN HEAVEN

                                                 I Have a Place in Heaven
                                       I have a place in heaven 
                                      Please don't sing sad songs for me, 
                                      Forget your grief and fears, 
                                      For I am in a perfect place 
                                     Away from pain and tears. 
                                     It's far away from hunger 
                                     And hurt and want and pride, 
                                     I have a place in Heaven 
                                     With the Master at my side. 
                                     My life on earth was very good, 
                                     As earthly life can go, 
                                     But Paradise is so much more 
                                     Than anyone can know. 
                                     My heart is filled with happiness 
                                     And sweet rejoicing, too. 
                                     To walk with God is perfect peace, 
                                     A joy forever new.
                                                                              Author Unknown

                                          The Monarch
                         Jessi Hersey

A single Monarch butterfly
floats so-silent-soft to earth;
carried by the breeze
to land on my outstretched hand.

Gazing at the majestic painted wings,
I am consumed by memories:
of releasing Monarchs in remembrance of
your free spirit,
and of the one butterfly
that would not leave, clinging to me.

"That's My Angel!"
Mom had said.
I blink, and no longer see the insect,
but your face, the
angelic features that I have missed.

You smile at me,
warm brown eyes all aglow,
and I can't help but smile in return.

Looking up, I find myself
not in my world,
but in yours:
a world of indescribable and unimaginable beauty.

Your small, warm hand grasps mine,
pulling me down a path
lined by glittering butterflies.

"Follow me!"
I do, and on the way we talk,
me of home,
and you of Heaven.

Being around you after all this time
becomes too much, though,
and tears blur my vision, threatening to spill.

You smile up at me,
"Please don't cry"
and I see that you are near to tears yourself.

Always the protective one,
I manage to stay my tears
and throw my arms around your tiny frame.

"I thought I'd never see you again,"
my voice is barely a whisper.
You look me straight in the eye.
"I'll never leave you," you promise.
"Never!"

Looking farther down the path,
I spot a door of light,
shimmering gloriously ahead.

"What is that?" I ask you.
Smiling still, you reply:
"That is where I live,
where I must go."

And in a flash of light, you are through the door,
and I know I cannot cross with you.
I don't belong here.

All of a sudden, I'm back where I started,
the Monarch gracefully fluttering
upward, circling my head
before disappearing into the sky above.

"Why couldn't you just stay here?" I ask,
although I already know the answer.

You were not meant to live here on Earth,
just as I could not follow you into Heaven.
Remembering your promise, I smile to myself.
Some day, I will pass through that door,
but not today.

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE CANDLES, TRIBUTES AND PICTURES YOU LEAVE FOR MY ANGELS. IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. I DON'T KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE WITHOUT ALL YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT. GOD BLESS YOU. HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA AND MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL ANTHONY XOXO

                          HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY

                               Mom I understand you can’t see me

                               But I can see you

                              I understand you miss me

                              I miss you more

                             I understand you feel sad, empty, alone

                             But understand you are never alone

                             Mom though I feel sad seeing my mom unhappy

                             I am still happy being with God, Jesus, and Blessed Mother

                            And one day you will understand everything when your time comes

                            To be with God, His Angels, and me

                            Mom I know you love me

                            I love you more

                            Until you join me I will always be by your side

                            And whisper my greatest love for you

                            Mom, clear your mind so you can see me in your dreams more often

                            And think positive, so you will be able to feel my presence, my love for

                           you.

                          And to let you know that I am still alive

                          Your son Patrick will always be with you in spirit

                          Mom just remember I only move away to another universe

                         And I will wait for my beautiful mom when your day comes to move

                          away.   

                         I will be waiting for you with open arms to receive

                        My mother back in my life… our eternal life, home with God

                        Mom just have faith in God

                       And believe death is not a termination

                       But only a transition to another life with God

                      Our Father who had created us to only experience this earthly life

                      And learn from one another before returning back home to Him

                      Mom you know we are bonded forever by love as God had intended

                       When He gave you your son as a gift of love

                       A love that will never die but grow deeper and fonder in our soul

                       Mom I understand you are confused for returning your gift to God

                       Again you will understand clearly the truth about life and death one day

                       Mom I understand our separation will always hurt you but not forever

                       We will meet again… a promise from God… Our Father

                       Until then… you will not walk your journey alone

                       I am here to wish you…

                                               HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY MY SWEET MOM,

                                                             YOUR LOVING SON Patrick

PS: Thank you Mom for your love, your beautiful thoughts about me and prayers. You are my mother and always will be my mother… Patrick’s Mom.

                                                     GOD BLESS YOU MOM!

THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS FROM ONE SWEET ANGEL TO ANOTHER SWEET ANGEL FOR ONE

LOST MOM TO ANOTHER LOST MOM FOR COMFORT, HEALING, HOPE AND FAITH.

I PRAY I WILL TAKE INTO HEART MY OWN THOUGHTS, HOPES FOR MY OWN RESCUE, FOR I AM PAINFULLY LOST WITHOUT MY BELOVED SON PATRICK.

I DON'T LIKE THIS EMPTINESS I HAVE TO ENDURE. IT'S TOO AGONIZING! IT'S UNFAIR!

GOD HELP US ALL! GOD BLESS US ALL! GOD COMFORT OUR ANGELS WITH ETERNAL LOVE,

LIGHT, PEACE, AND KEEP THEM ALL SAFE UNTILL WE MEET OUR SWEET ANGELS AND TAKE

OVER OUR MOTHERLY LOVE, DUTIES, RIGHTS IN HEAVEN NOT JUST ON EARTH!

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY BELOVED SON PATRICK CHRISTIAN BARBOSA… MY PRECIOUS SON I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO DEEPLY. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE, DREAMS SO MUCH.

                                    A SILENT THIEF

  A silent, cruel thief named death, came over one morning and snatched my loving son Patrick without mercy or remorse for me or my son.
The piece of my womb is gone far away under the  twilight zone of death
 Life will never be the same

How am I supposed to live a shattered life with no return of normalcy
How am I supposed to live with a wounded womb with no cure
How am I supposed to live with the missing puzzle of my life
How am I supposed to live with this empty hole in my chest

They say this silent thief happened because of Adam and Eve, the sour juice of death
Are we to be blamed for the destruction of Satan
Are we to be blamed for the disobedience of Adam and Eve
Am I to be blamed for the deadly act that Adam and Eve had caused way before my time

How am I supposed to live a shattered life with no return of normalcy
How am I supposed to live with a wounded womb with no cure
How am I supposed to live with the missing puzzle of my life
How am I supposed to live with this empty hole in my chest

God, I am not challenging Your virtue of fate or destiny
But my broken heart does not know or understand Your virtue
My heart only understands sadness and sorrow from the loss of my son Patrick
My heart is aching endlessly in the stream of my sadden tears
Oh God, forgive me for my selfish thoughts
I am just a lost sinner in the valley of death
A lost mother in the river of my sorrowful tears
A lonely angel in the darkness of my gloomy life

How am I supposed to live  a shattered life with no return of normalcy
How am I supposed to live with a wounded womb with no cure
How am I supposed to live with the missing puzzle of my life
How am I supposed to live with this empty hole in my chest

Forever in my heart. Love, Mom

DEDICATED TO MY LOVING SON PATRICK CHRISTIAN BARBOSA

                           THE INVISIBLE CORD

                   We are connected, My child and I 
                   by an invisible cord, not seen by the eye 
                   It's not like the cord that connects us til birth 
                   this cord can't be seen by any on earth 
                   This cord does its work right from the start 
                   it binds us together attached by my heart 
                   I know that it's there, though no one can see 
                   the invisible cord from my child to me 
                   the strength of this cord is hard to describe 
                   it can't be destroyed, it can't be denied 
                   it's stronger than any cord man can create 
                   it withstands the tests, can hold any weight 
                 and though you are gone, though your not here with me      
                 the cord is still there, but no one can see
                It pulls at my heart, I am bruised, I am sore
                But this cord is my lifeline as never before
                I am thankful that God connects us this way
               A parent and child, death can't take this away.

 
                                                          UNKNOWN AUTHOR  

        I MISS YOU SO MUCH PATRICK.

       IT IS SO HARD NOT FEEL SAD, ANGRY, TEARFUL, BROKEN HEART THOUGH.

 I AM SO SORRY BUT I CAN'T CONTROL

 ALL THESE FEELINGS AS MY POOR HEART CAN'T UNDERSTANDING ANYTHING BUT THE PAIN AND EVERY SORROFUL FEELINGS. MY MIND CAN'T ACCEPT YOUR

CROSSING OVER TO GOD'S HOME SO SOON. WHY PATRICK? WHY GOD?

PLEASE HELP ME UNDERSTAND.

PLEASE HELP ME HAVE HOPE, UNDERSTANDING, AND FAITH.

PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO WALK THIS HORRIBLE JOURNEY AND THE

WILLPOWER TO HOLD ON TO YOUR WILL.

AMEN.

I LOVE YOU PATRICK. I MISS YOU SON SO

DEEPLY. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.

                                                        A MOTHERS LOVE

"A mother's love is special
It's present every day,
A gift that came from heaven
That God has sent our way.
Her job is never ending
She's there all day & night,
To be there for her children
And be their guiding light.
Her thoughts are with them always,
Even if they are apart,
Her children have a special place
Deep down inside her heart.
Mother's are a special gift~
A gift from up above,
This world would seem so empty,
Without a Mother's Love."
         ...........T. Entzminger

                                         A Mother’s Day Wish From Heaven

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, the stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she’s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
that though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see God, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you God, I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.

                            UNKNOWN AUTHOR

A Mother's Prayer

Lord, today is Mother's Day, but my heart is split in two.

Half is with the child still here,

The other with the child that is now there with you.

All the lovely presents are a nice surprise,

But the one thing I want most is missing,

And tears fill my eyes.

I know when you sent him, Lord,

You didn't promise how long he would stay.

All you said was to love him and treasure each and every day.

But Lord, it crushed my heart when you called for his return.

I feel like half a Mom, as I ache, weep and yearn.

But Lord, tell him I love him just as much as I did before.

And could you please make a window,

so he can see through heaven's door ?

Let him see that he is missed and thought of with each breath.

And that a Mother's love begins before life, and does not end with death.

So, on this Mother's Day, the Greatest Gift, I give to you.

For Lord, I know you missed him and you loved him, too.

                                        -Author Unknown-